Not a Surprise to God
This picture shows Stephen and I, a few short hours after finding out about the twins. We were headed to Monterey to watch my brother race. It was actually great timing because we had a weekend together away from distraction to process this life-changing news. I was SO NAUSEOUS. Possibly because I was pregnant, but more so from the continuous WHAT IF'S that ran through my mind every minute. Enjoy a short slideshow of the proud twin dad throwing up two fingers in every picture we took that weekend hahahha. I did not think it was so funny in the moment as I was TERRIFIED and he was so chill and excited about it all, but now I am grateful because it makes me laugh and reminds me why I love him.
What we learned that weekend... none of this is a surprise to God. That has been my mantra for the past couple of weeks. I get caught up in the details, and the devil totally shows up in the details. The details of having twins making our kid count at 4 kiddos under 3 years old. But you know what? None of this is new to God, He knew this and planned this for our lives to be a season of a new kind of reliance and trust in Him to show up. 4 kids under 3? Not a surprise to God. Twins? Not a surprise to God. The fact that they are Monodi and could have complications? Not a surprise to God. That I was only 5ish months post C-Section and pregnant causing potential issues? Not a surprise to God. My sister-in-law who is getting married a week before my due date and I am one of the Matron's of Honors? Not a surprise to God.
Isn't that reassuring? That we serve a God that knows all, has been all, is all and is to be all? That all things that happen in our lives, good and bad, are not a surprise to Him and have a purpose in our sanctification? If there is anything I have learned from trials in my life, as well as triumphs, is that they have brought me closer to Jesus. Trials force me to rely on the Lord in new ways, where only HE can show up. Triumphs force me to point to any "good and perfect gift and that it came from above." James 1:17
Now that I am beyond the shock of the news of the babies, I can say that this news is most definitely a triumph. LIFE is special to God, "children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward." Psalm 127:3 Therefore, these babies are special to us and a GIFT. But there are a lot of unknowns along this road that I am having to lean into Jesus for and trusting that He is going to show up. So with each good ultrasound that passes, it's a triumph that I am giving to God and praising Him for. With each bump in the road, I am asking Jesus to give me the grace to handle those as they come with the divine power of His Holy Spirit.
Tangent...Monodi twins? What is that? I've gotten a few questions about the babies that I'd thought I'd share right here so you can better understand this journey for us.... and how literally, it's all God.
Our babies are identical, Mono (one placenta) Di (two amniotic sacs) twinsies. We run into potential complications with them sharing a placenta because of the possibility of one twin receiving unequal nutrition. This is POSSIBLE, and our doc is amazing and keeping his best eyes on it all. BUT, like I said, none of this is a surprise to God (duh, he MADE Monodi twins) and we know He will give us the grace come each appointment, ultrasound, blood draw, day spent with the kiddos, etc along this journey.
Do twins run in our family? NO, that is why I NEVER thought this would EVER be a possibility hahha. BUT apparently, not all twins are genetic. Identical twins are not hereditary (from my limited medical twin knowledge) and there is about a .3% chance you can get pregnant with them...well, we are the .3% I guess! A total miracle, and a continued miracle every time we see them on that ultrasound screen kickin' around in my belly.
All that to say, this is my continued mantra.... none of this is a surprise to God. And I am thankful for that. He is the one with control over all those details that the devil seems to slip into as I think at night. I think back to times in my life where I wanted the control and had a plan... and EVERY single time the Lord made things go differently... it was ALWAYS better than the one I had originally planned... even with trials and triumphs along the way.
So today, these sweet babes are okay. I am okay. We are okay, and I am giving that triumph to Jesus to receive all the glory. Tomorrow, well... Jesus says, "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." Matthew 6:34.
Praying you rest in the fact that good or bad, it's not a surprise to God... "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28. The sermon series we have been going through on Daniel just finished up yesterday, and it drove the point home that Daniel's life, with the many impossible situations, good and bad, was not a surprise to God and He had purpose and plan for each trial and triumph in Daniel's life that we can now glean wisdom from. (Extremely poor summarization, listen to it for yourself from our amazing & educated Pastors from Foothill Church here)